Strange Feelings

Everyone at some time or another encounters a strange feeling or feelings.
like when sitting out on the porch on an early day of Autum, just enjoying the sun, the cool breeze, the peace and quiet, the way the breeze blows your hair IF you have any. Being aware of all that goes on around you. Or you think you are being aware. The wind seems to be picking up just a little, your hair is moving more than it was then you look at the trees and grass to see if you are right. So you smooth down your hair and you end up feeling a stick in your hair and wonder HOW it managed to get in your hair when you hadn't even been any where to have gotten one. So you look around, find nothing and brush your hand in your hair in a different direction, you feel it fall out and quickly notice that it FELT colder than a stick does only to have a WALKING STICK fall out and into your lap and roll off on to the ground. Aren't you glad you went to the potty BEFORE that happend.



Pets and kids also end up causing one to have strange feelings or feel strange things from them.
Like standing and talking to someone when your pet comes up to you and leaves something on your feet THINKING all the while you would love it if that animal would get off your feet, just to either move and look down or just look down only to find either their butt on your foot or something they found or killed and are pround of them selves because they brought you a GIFT.
You either freak out and twitch in discugst, or calmly say in a LOVING voice"OH! , thank you so much, now run along and I'll go put this away." Expecting them to run off, nope they want you to take that prize and do something with it all the while they are watching.
Now kids, they can be like the pet. Loving, sweet, kind, playful, and proud of their findings too.
How about when they come up to you hands wet, thinking they washed their hands, not giving it a second thought, then the smell sets in,
Use your imagination. Was it pudding? Was it Ketchup? was it water? Was it paint? or the dreaded one Was it poop?
Only you and that child knows. My youngest grandson came to me one day with something on his fingers, me thinking he got into the pudding in the frige, he said "mell am'ma" I got close enough to find out he had dug into the back of his diaper to show me he had pooped.

There are so many things that can get your attention in some of the strangest ways.

All Shook Up

There are many things in our life time when certain things, people and happenings can just shake the very foundation of of your core.
Lately there have been many things that have just been shaking me up and I'm one that can with stand alot of crap. I've HAD to in order to survive what I have been through in order to allow my family and children to survive. Some things may seem small on one hand and on the other are really BIG. There are those who have been through exactly the same ordeal or are going through it as I type this out. There are those who have had to live it through some one elses eyes and be there for support in one way or another.
I don't know what to really say or how I want this to come out sounding on here , let alone how am I to put it down on here in my words. My foundation has been shaking . To the core at times, but I FORCED my self back up to my feet and continue to climb another mountain. What I KNEW would happen has happend but only years later, but got shaken when I got the news.
No one said it was going to be easy out on the battle ground, no one said to watch your back out there, no one said time to come back in and rest and try again with a different way, no one said you can and will with stand it, no one said that you will learn a great deal out there.
Its like being tossed to the sharks and told sink or swim, or thrown to the wolves and told live or die.
I have done all of the above .

Some thought I had gone crazy and was talking crazy to the things that had been happening and are still happening. But ITS ALL IN THE TIMING when the truth does come out and is finally seen. Forgivness is another thing. I can forgive so easy to those who have no understanding as to what I have gone through or were there watching me and my children go through.
Its time for the healing and hurt to stop and the healing to begin and the pain of the old and new wounds to go away.
that I know is going to be a long road and path to travel, but as long as I have God as MY pilot, my family at my back and my friends in the cheering section I know and see the VICTORY goal in sight and the score board above it I KNOW I'll score and be the winner.

My family has seen each one of us at rock bottom, we have all supported each other in one way or another, but there is nothing like being shook to the core of ones foundation, and the key is not to let that keep you down, you got to have the "mustar" to get back up and pull it back together and make it that much stronger. for there is going to be one or two others who will need you because of the past experience in life.

In closing, ALWAYS EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED AND BRACE YOURSELF FOR THE STORM.
STAND YOUR GROUND, SAY WHAT YOU MEAN AND KNOW WHEN TO GET OFF THE BATTLE FEILD TO REST AND REGROUP.